The morning I came to my sensesThis morning I realised that I truly “came to my senses”. What this means to me is that my thought patterns are no longer scrambled. An example of this is like a puzzle where the pieces were scattered. Suddenly they are put together. I believe life is a journey from infancy to adulthood, a journey without direction. Sometimes circumstances dictate the choices you make. When I came to a crossroad I actually didn’t do anything. Leaving it up to fate. The experience I went through I thought it was inevitable at that point in time. It was a very difficult period. For me, the factors that were involved in my mental wellbeing were exhaustion, complexities and disappointments. My first thought was ”I have been complete before and I can do it again!”. But the start was self-motivation. Only you can take the first step. "At first I didn’t know I could do it but with help and support from members and staff I felt part of something and was willing to contribute" Forming a routine helped and not to worry about time when you set your goal. Finding an outlet to come to; I came to Mosaic Clubhouse. Greeted by one of the members who cheerfully welcomed me by saying "Are you coming? We need more members.” I started to laugh.
Work wasn’t on the agenda as I was making my way to recovery. I took a slow pace and didn’t rush into things. Having isolated myself in the past I was apprehensive about my capabilities working in a group. I enjoyed the Business and Administration Unit but I was flung into the deep end. At first I didn’t know I could do it but with help and support from members and staff I felt part of something and was willing to contribute.
With the encouragement of a staff member I was assigned to do a Transitional Employment Placement (TEP) in Stockwell at the Lambeth Living Well Network Hub. The positive aspect of working there is helping individuals who have had mental health conditions. I get a great many rewards and job satisfaction by working there. When I applied for a full time position I was pleased they thought so highly of me. They offered me the job!
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