It's good to talk

Talking about the issues that affects us can be the hardest thing we ever have to do.  I have been there, and I can tell you, it was not easy to make that first step.  When I first realised that I needed to go back deep into my past and bring up the things that I had buried for so long, it was so hard, so very, very hard.  I didn’t want to do it, but way down inside, I knew I had to.  I had buried it all for so long that it had become like an infested wound and was destroying my life.  I could not go on and if I didn’t deal with these issues within, I probably would not be here today.

I had to learn to take one step at a time.  To go right back to the beginning and start from there.  Once again I have to say that it wasn’t easy at first, but once I got started, I just could not stop.  It was a lay person, not a mental health professional that I first opened up to and though with hindsight I would have preferred the latter, she was very patient with me.  She urged me to take my time and so slowly, and to bring everything out.  That night I talked and I talked for about six hours, but I did not bring everything out.  I held back some of the things that had happened to me, but after about a month I brought out a bit more, and within another two weeks, everything came out.

Then it was time for the healing process to begin.  This wound that had been festering for so long had finally opened up and cleaned out, but the healing process had just began.  It took years and years for me to get to the point where it was all going behind me instead of always dominating my life as it did before.  The distressing flashbacks which were ever present have become less and less and though I still experience them, they are no way near anything that they used to be. 

The scars are still with me and may never, ever go away.  I may never recover from mental illness which has been the result of my past experiences, but I am much better than I used to be and would love to find a medium where I can stand before an audience and tell my  story.

Talking about past experiences, especially painful ones which has destroyed our lives can be hard to do, but if you find yourself in this situation, give it a try.  Just make that brave move, find someone you can trust and start talking.  You would be surprised at the difference it can make to your life and the release it can bring.  And remember this, that wounds can take time to heal, but healing will come.
 

"Just make that brave move, find someone you can trust and start talking." 

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